Disclaimer: It belongs to Marvel, what more can I say? Excalibur: The more things change... 2 Breanna MacLeod Pete hauled himself out of bed when the alarm went off. If the machine had been capable of emotions, it probably would have gone into shock over Pete's uncharacteristically early awakening. It was before noon, and he didn't even stop for a shot of scotch. He stumbled down to the medlab, half awake and clothed in one of his usual suits. The tie had been tied along with several curses, his weary fingers leaving it askew, unable to make Pete's usual halfhearted attempt at neatness at this early hour. Entering the room, he found Moira with an enormous mug of her deathsludge. The containment suit she had been wearing the day before was nowhere to be seen. "Wisdom." "MacTaggart." He tried to shake himself more awake. "Wot happened to that containment suit anyway?" "Nae point in it now, really." Moira sighed. "Experiment was over when Dougie opened tha' door. If I've contaminated anythin', it would ha' happened long before I put tha' suit on. I took it off last night. It seemed tae be makin' th' lass uneasy, though I doubt she'll remember. Were ye so tired tha' ye dinnae notice?" "No, just seemed like ya were back ta normal. Normal as this place gets..." "Pete." The figure that embraced him seemed to be the same girl who had sought him out last night, despite the too large clothing hanging off her, so he returned the hug. "I can't believe you're actually awake." She smiled up at him. It was the kind of half smile you see plastered on people's faces when they're trying not to let on that they've just had their heart ripped out. Pete was familiar with it. He tried to do the same for her. In his less than honourable career working for British intelligence, he'd done a number of things because they had been the right thing to do. Stealing a Black Air chopper to get Doyle to the hospital had been among them. He'd only gotten a minor reprimand for that, he'd been too valuable to the organization at the time. But Al was different. Breaking every rule in the Black Air book, he and Culley had slipped the kids right out from underneath bio-weapons. It had needed doing in the worst way, and they'd both risked life and limb to pull the scheme off. They'd been on edge for a while afterward, hoping that no one had figured out who had pulled the job. After that, Pete had slid even deeper into the darker areas of Black Air. Culley had been transferred, and now he was dead. When Pete had finally reached breaking point and bailed on Black Air, Kitty had become the redeeming factor in his life. He hadn't been alone with his nightmares anymore. Now that was dead too. Pete smiled. "Wot? 'Course I'm up. Things ta go, People ta do-" "Pete, how much sleep did ye get?" Moira swiveled in her chair to face the two of them. "Enough," he shrugged her off. "Anyway, Wagner said somethin' about lunch and you meetin' the crew of this sorry island. Sound all right?" "Mmm hmm. I don't really remember getting here. I remember you and Moira last night, but I can't remember exactly what happened. She said you found me on the shore?" The pale skinned girl looked up at him. Her skin wasn't alone in its recent colour change. Her hair was an almost transparent shade of blonde now, though that change may have been more due to a good washing than anything else. Her eyes remained luminescent in appearance, and defied description. "Meggan found ya and then came and hauled my carcass over. You'll meet everybody in a bit. How'd ya sleep?" "Pretty good. I was a little exhausted." "A little? Lass, ye could have been a brick wall, th' way ye slept." Al smiled a little, "I like her. She got me these." Al gestured to the ill fitting clothing. Pete assumed that Moira had raided Rahne's closet for them. Allathea's figure had shrunk as well, leaving her looking thin and elfin, her body at least two sizes below Rahne's well formed athlethic body. "Well, don't let 'er fool ya, she's a harpy when she wants ta be." Allathea leaned her head against Pete's chest. Moira noted how the girl had tried to minimize physical contact with her, and yet seemed to be very comfortable with Pete. "No nightmares, luv?" Pete asked her quietly. "No... not last night. How's Culley?" Pete hesitated and was rescued by Moira. "It's almost noon, then. Ye had best get up there before they devour th' whole kitchen." "Aren't you coming?" Al looked curiously at her newfound friend. "Nae. I need tae stay here. No rest f'r the wicked ye know, an' I've far too much work tae do." Moira smiled at her and then returned to the computer screens surrounding her. She had a great deal on her mind, not the least of which was this girl and her abilities. "Later, then." Al watched her, puzzled as they left the medlab. The question hung on the edge of her tongue until they were out of earshot. "Pete?" She tightened her grip slightly on his arm. "Wot?" "What's wrong with her?" "Huh? Oh, virus." "Is it contagious?" "Maybe. It kills mutants anyhow. That bubble containment suit she was wearin' before, ya wouldn't remember it from last night, was part of 'er plan ta try and figure out 'ow ta kill it. 'ow'd you know she was sick?" Al's eyes stared off into the wall, "It was just a feeling." Meggan and Kurt were busily arranging lunch, while Douglock and Rahne had emerged from hiding and were sitting quietly by the window. "I hope she's better." "I'm sure Moira has been taking care of our guest." Kurt moved with a grace that prima ballerinas would kill for as he carried the majority of the food to the table. Meggan easily matched him, gliding mere millimetres above the floor as she worked. "She was just so upset when she got here. I could feel it. I didn't like it at all, Kurt. I hope Pete can make her feel better." "They certainly do seem close." "Mmm hmm. I knew I was right about him." Kurt raised an inquiring eyebrow, but Meggan continued humming her way through the assembling of the last salad. "Kurt?" Rahne spoke up, "Who are ye talkin' about?" "A young woman washed up on the shore last night. She appears to be a friend of Wisdom. Her name is Allathea and Moira has been tending to her with Pete." "So tha's her name. Mum mentioned somethin' aboot it earlier, but she dinnae say how th' lass got here. She's given up on her experiment completely, though. She was oot o' tha' suit when I saw her this mornin'." Douglock's eyes remained downcast as Rahne spoke to Kurt. "Ja? Is everything all right with you?" "Aye." Rahne turned back to Douglock. "Ye cannae mope all day." "Sorry." Douglock raised his eyes to meet hers. "I feel really stupid." "As ye should, but there's nothin' tae be done aboot it now. Ye just remember no' tae complain when we're tryin' tae pry th' Legacy data oot o'ye." Douglock smiled slightly. The door swung open as Pete and Allathea entered. Al noted the odd expressions on the faces of those around her, and reminded herself to ask Pete about it later. "Allathea?" Meggan approached the young woman, who now appeared to have shed any trace of the colour that she had been when Meggan had first seen her. "My name is Meggan." "You found me, didn't you?" "An' nearly killed me, gettin' me back 'ere." Pete interjected. "Thank you." Al ignored Pete. "This is Kurt, the team leader." Kurt bowed dramatically as Meggan introduced him, as was his usual custom, and was pleased at Allathea's lack of shock at his appearance. "And sitting over there is Rahne, Moira's daughter, and Douglock." "Hello." "Hi. Nice tae meet ye." "Umm, Piotr isn't here at the moment. He's the tall Russian. Sometimes he's steel. Kitty and Lockheed are around too. Kitty is a brunette about Rahne's size, and Lockheed is a small purple dragon. That's about everyone who's on the island right now. So, are you hungry?" "Starving, actually." "Good. I have been slaving in this kitchen all morning." Kurt grinned, his white teeth gleaming against his rich blue fur. "Sit down. It is nearly ready." Pete slouched into a chair and yawned. Allathea seated herself next to him as Rahne and Douglock joined them. "Are you a mutant?" Douglock politely tried to begin a conversation, his language skills becoming more and more natural. Allathea froze. "I-" "Nah." Pete stepped in casually, "Al 'ere is a one o' a kind original. So, I 'ear the Scots harridan is set ta rip out yer guts fer data?" "Aye. Stryfe created th' blasted virus, an' his android Zero downloaded th' data he had on it into Douglock. We're hopin' tae be able tae fish some o' it oot o' him." "I have been attempting to locate it myself, and have so far only narrowed the search by a fraction. However, I have vague recollections of something that occurred while I was under the care of Black Air, and I am certain that we will be able to find the data." Allathea glanced at Douglock, her eyes darting quickly back to her food as her expression belied the aching emotions which scurried beneath her composed, yet shy, appearance. The young techno-organic being noticed the action and sympathized, but avoided his usual questioning as Pete made a small gesture, jerking his head slightly and shifting his eyes. He had learned that often others would direct him this way when a subject was too delicate to approach. Douglock nodded in the same slight manner in response to Pete. Meggan gave Douglock a supportive smile as she passed behind Pete and Allathea, setting down the pitcher of water she carried. Douglock had learned more quickly than most, that when it came to people, very little seemed to escape Meggan's notice - with the exception of her problems with Piotr that is. "Well, I wish ya luck. MacTaggart's goin' ta need it, but I guess if any o' you lot can pull it off, it's 'er." "Thank ye, Pete. I only hope we c'n find it in time." "And lunch is served." Kurt and Meggan gracefully put the overflowing dishes on the table. "I hope you are all able to appreciate good German food." Kitty sat in her workroom and carfully examined the object she'd found on the shore. It was the first opportunity she'd really had to take a good look at the synthetic swatch of material. The thin lines of circuitry gracefully lined one side of it, while the other was a deep black. It looked to her like it would have been part of a larger suit. Maybe some kind of monitoring device? If it had arrived with the girl, Pete might know more about it. "Katchzen?" Kurt's voice crackled over the comm link. "Yeah?" "Will you be joining us for lunch?" "Maybe later, Fuzzy. Thanks, anyway." She'd wait another half an hour before grabbing Kurt or Douglock after lunch. One of them could give her a second opinion and ask Pete about it. "Hold on, Pryde. What are you afraid of? Just because he decided to be stupid and overreact, doesn't mean you have to tiptoe around the jerk." Kitty looked back at her monitor. Pete would be sure to go out for a cigarette later. She'd catch him when he came back in. Piotr sat on the rocky cliff and stared out towards the sea. Things were not turning out at all as he had expected. Meggan had accused him of having romantic feelings for her. A foolish notion, he thought, how could he have feeling for her when he was still so in love with Katya? His mood darkened again as his thought turned to Wisdom. The man to whom she had given her love instead of himself. He hated Wisdom. He did not hate the man himself, although he did not agree with his politics, his demeanour, his darkness and dirtiness. Kurt had, on one occasion, made an off-hand remark likening Wisdom to Logan, but Piotr knew better what the man was. What Piotr hated, what made all these things grate over him where they should have been little more than annoyances, was that Wisdom was Kitty's love. The way she looked at him and let him paw at her. Wisdom would do nothing but sully and debase everything that she was and could be. Her devotion, their touching and kissing, her choice of Wisdom over him... The knowledge burned in his chest every time he had to work with the two of them. He had held it in, in the hopes that it would go away. He had held it and waited, sure that the time would come when the others would see Wisdom as he did. The man was not fit for this team, and was most definitely not fit for Kitty. Though it had been difficult, Meggan had made things easier. Spending time with her, caring for her as he had his little snowflake. Brian had hurt Meggan as well. But for a time, with her and his painting, he had been able to bury the feelings of despair, hatred and longing. Waiting for the day when his Katya would return to him was not so agonizing while Meggan stood near. And Wisdom had almost been gone, almost out of their lives. He would have had a chance with Kitty again, and they would have been happy. Meggan had been angry with him, but she would be all right when Brian returned. Not that he wanted Brian to return. But Meggan was only a friend, he loved Kitty, Katya. They would have another chance together - They would have, had Pete not been forced to return before he had even truly been gone. He would leave again, Piotr was sure of it. Then, then things would work out the way they were supposed to. "Katchzen?" Kurt poked his head inside her workroom. "Are you sure that you are not at all hungry?" His hand held out a plate filled with the remains of lunch. "Maybe a little." She smiled and took the plate. "Thanks, Kurt." "So, how are you and what new toy have you discovered today?" Kurt eyed the item Kitty had been working on. "I found it on the shore where the girl-" "Allathea." "Right - where she was found. It looks like a piece of what could be a suit or uniform. It could have been part of a monitoring encasement and also maybe a containment unit." "Containment?" "It's just a hunch. I thought maybe Douglock could help me figure it out, and maybe Pete would know something about it too." "Ja, if you can wrest Douglock away from Moira. He was just called down." "Nuts. Well, I guess I'll have to settle for Pete." Kurt snagged Kitty's mentioning of Pete, and turned the comment into a neat segway. "What exactly did happen between the two of you, Katchzen?" "Uhh, it's kinda complicated, Kurt." Kitty folded her arms across her chest and looked at her toes. "Let me put it this way, I wasn't sure about how I felt about Pete, and I told him that. Pete decided that wasn't good enough for him, and decided to leave." "Nothing is that simple. You certainly didn't seem to think so a few days ago." Kurt referred to the nearly fatal pirate training session, where Kitty had revealed some of her feelings to him. "Well, he obviously didn't really give a damn about our relationship, or he would have at least stuck around long enough to try and work things out." Her chin jutted out, challenging Kurt to tell her otherwise. "Perhaps, but - and correct me if I am wrong - were you and he not happy together? Did your time with SHIELD allow your feelings to change so drastically?" "I- Fuzzy, it just made me see things a bit differently. Maybe I'm not ready for a serious relationship like Pete wanted." "Katchzen, you have always been mature for your age and, though I had my doubts, you did prove yourself capable of having an adult relationship with Herr Wisdom. I cannot recall a single instant when you felt as though your decision had been such a bad one. That is, until these past few weeks, where you have become mired in an apparent conflict regarding your age?" Kurt vocalized the statement as a question. "I had thought you were happy." "I know, but- couldn't it have just been infatuation, or- What are you smiling about?" Kurt couldn't help the small grin that tugged at the corners of his mouth. "It wasn't so long ago that you argued vehemently against the fact that you indulged in such infatuations. You were quite determined to prove yourself emotionally mature, and indeed you did. And yet now you wish to be 'young'?" Kitty bit her bottom lip. "Maybe I'm just no good at romance or relationships." She was staring at her toes again. "Might this have something to do with your parents?" Kurt approached the sensitive topic carefully. "You mentioned something about it in the Nightmare debriefing." Kitty hesitated. "Kitty, I only wish to help you. I do worry, you know." "Fuzzy, it's just- I've never been very good at this. Pete was the first guy that things really worked out with. I didn't really get along with any guys when I was with the X-Men, except maybe Doug - but he was different - and then there was Alistaire..." Kitty sighed. "When I was being manipulated by Nightmare, he- he took me back to when I was living with my parents. I was thirteen all over again. It was before they were separated, and before the X-Men had found me. I was sitting in my old room and I could hear them shouting at each other... God, even now I can hear it replaying in my head." Kitty pulled her knees up and hugged them to her chest, suddenly looking very much like the young girl Kurt had first known her as. "Katchzen." He crouched next to her, taking her hand. "What if I'm just as screwed up as they are? What if it's me and not Pete? I could have messed it up without knowing it, and I know I hurt him. I knew I was going to hurt him before, and that's why it was so hard to tell him. The look in his eyes when he left..." "But you are hurting too, are you not?" "Yeah, but- it's different. I don't think Pete ever really had anybody before. He was a jerk, and I'm still not sure about what I feel for him, but maybe I made a mistake in even getting involved." Kitty rubbed at her wet eyes. "And Rigby- Haven't you ever been confused about relationships?" "Ja, of course I have. My relationship with Amanda has held more confusion within it than I care to remember. Ach, for a time I also thought I might have had feelings for Meggan. Do you remember that?" Kitty nodded, recalling the early days of Excalibur, when Brian had been drinking and Meggan and Kurt had grown close. "Then, of course, there was Cerise. A relationship which ended quite badly. I do often wonder what might have happened to her. And now there is Amanda again, or was." Kitty smiled a little, remembering all the other women Kurt had convenietly glossed over. "Have you heard from Cerise at all?" "Nein, but I am not the topic of discussion. I believe we were discussing your relationship difficulties." Kitty sighed, "I don't know what to do, Kurt." She let her head droop to rest on her knees. "Well, at least you have some time to consider things, ja? Pete does not seem to be departing as quickly as he would have initially liked." Kitty nodded, but remained skeptical. She could think about it all she liked, and it still wouldn't fix things. She might never be able to really love somebody, not without following the path of her parents. A thought that terrified her. Besides, Pete probably hated her now and was leaving because of it. Kitty was sure that after she'd hurt him, when he'd opened up so much, he'd never want anything to do with her again. Not that she wanted to be with him again... This is so confusing! Her thoughts shouted at her loudly, but didn't escape her lips. "Well, I guess I should go find him and ask about this thingy." "Ja, but after you finish your lunch." Kurt pointed to the plate which Kitty had barely touched. "You cannot let such culinary artistry go to waste." Pete walked outside, full from the immense lunch Kurt had so enthusiastically served them, and lit up a cigarette. Allathea had insisted on helping Rahne clean up, and had said she would find him after. "Least the wind isn't too bad today." He took a long drag off the "cancer stick", he remembered Kitty calling them that once, when she'd actually given a damn about his sorry ass. He shouldn't have even bothered trying. Nightmare could have been right, maybe the last thing Kitty needed at this point in her life was an old bastard of a boyfriend. Still, it hurt that she could have had such strong feelings for someone else, when he'd thought everything had been fine - though he did have to admit to having some concerns. But they had been nothing he didn't think would- "Wisdom?" Pete saw the dark Russian, crouching by the cliff, as he heard his name. He finished the step he was taking and then settled into his position, maintaining a safe distance. It was in keeping with their usual dance, avoiding one another at mealtimes and training sessions. "Yeah, you sulkin' out 'ere again?" "I am not sulking. I am contemplating the current situation of our team." "Your team, mate." Pete emphasized "your", as if he had never been and never would be Piotr's teammate. "Precisely. You have been nothing but a curse to this team. "Right, sure. Ain't like I'm stickin' around long. Besides, you don't exactly have it all together either." "What is that supposed to mean?" Piotr looked at him sharply. "Wot? You 'aven't noticed 'ow Meggan's all riled up? Wot'd ya do, ya tosser?" "Me? I have done nothing! Meggan is under the mistaken impression that I have feelings for her. It is obviously her own emotional difficulties that have caused such an untrue accusation." "Sure, an' you ain't never felt nothin' for 'er, all that time ya spent together, hmmm? A beautiful, warm woman like Meggan, wot's wrong with that picture?" "Nothing! I feel nothing for Meggan. Why do you insist on focusing on my relationship," Pete smirked at him, "my friendship with Meggan, when you have hurt Katya so badly." "Now wait just a feckin' minute, you Russian pratt. It ain't all my fault -" "Katya loved you!" "Right, an' so this Rigby toerag -" "Katya loved you and would not have betrayed you unless you had first hurt her." Piotr rose. "How dare you suggest such a thing? My Katya only left me for you because of my foolish stupidity in hurting her. Nyet, this was your fault!" "Yeah? Maybe yer the one who's feelin' guilty. 'ow does it make ya feel, bein' attracted ta somebody else when ya still want a chance with Kit?" Pete grinned wryly. Piotr tried to ignore his words. "Nyet. You have hurt her." "'aven't you ever heard about throwin' stones at glass 'ouses?" "You hurt her and would have abandoned her, Wisdom." Pete snorted, "No worse'n you ever did, mate." That's when Piotr swung the first fist, crossing the distance between them with remarkable speed. "Feck." Pete managed to dodge it, only to be caught by the second swing. By now, he could see the sunlight glinting off off Piotr's body. He had transformed into his organic steel form. "How dare you! How dare you hurt my Katya and betray this team!" "Betray - oof!" The third punch sent him sprawling backwards. Rolling as best he could, with several cracked ribs, ten hotknives flared to life at his fingertips and prepared to attack. "You are a traitor, immoral and-" "What are you doing? Leave him alone!" Allathea appeared and stepped between the two men, dwarfed by Colossus' immense size. Pete hadn't seen her coming, and wasn't sure whether he should be relieved or terrified. "Get out of my way!" Piotr shouted at her, batting her aside. Allathea hit the ground hard. With her out of the way, Pete launched his attack, scoring wounds across Piotr's left shoulder. Colossus pulled back his arm, still advancing at an alarming rate. Pete wasn't fast enough to escape the oncoming blow, which was why it surprised him when it didn't land. Looking back, he saw Allathea crouched low and Piotr raising his right arm to strike her again. "I told you to get out of my way!" His arm came down fast and hard. "No!" Pete yelled. Piotr was wrapped up in his rage, and nothing was getting through to him. Allathea caught the arm. Piotr was momentarily stunned, giving Allathea the few split seconds she needed to shift her grasp and swivel to fling Colosus down the shore in one swift movement. Pete tried to catch his breath, and hoped Piotr would cool down now that they were several metres apart. Allathea rose fluidly, and Pete noticed the change in her form. "Faster now, ain't ya?" "I don't want to hurt him." She looked a lot more timid than someone who had the strength to toss Colossus should. "An' I 'ope ya won't have to. The rest of'em should be out 'ere in a minute if the psychotic metal wanker down there doesn't cool off." Pete winced as he tried to stand, and Allathea slid an arm around him. "Here. Are you all right?" "It's just a few ribs, luv. Not as bad as the first time." "First time?" Allathea's eyes widened. "He hurt you before?" Pete followed her gaze, as she turned to watch Piotr rise to his knees. Piotr got to his feet and glared at them. "Oh, bloody-" Pete began to curse as Piotr started to move. Thankfully the cavalry was just arriving. "What's happening? Piotr?" The lithe blonde floated down out of the sky, and had obviously sensed Piotr's rage. The mess of emotion and adrenaline had indeed hit Meggan's empathic senses like fingernails on a chalkboard. Piotr stalked back towards the group. Meggan hovered between them and Colossus, clearly not impressed with the situation. "Meggan -" Piotr began. "Don't you start with me. I'll knock you silly if you don't settle down. I'm getting fed up with you. You can't solve anything without fighting about it, now can you? You're worse than Brian was, at least he was drunk at the time." "But -" "So help me, if you've hurt Pete again, you'll be the one in critical condition. Do you understand?" Piotr nodded, quickly deflated by the unexpected burst of anger Meggan was directing at him. He had already transformed back into flesh, his shoulder scarred and burnt by Pete's hotknives. He was also burning inside. "And don't give me that sensitive, emotional, puppy dog look. It's half your fault I'm this bloody mad!" Meggan quickly glanced to Pete, and asked him in a softer tone, "Are you all right?" Pete nodded wearily and Meggan snapped back to Piotr. "Right, now the both of you are going back to the Medlab with me. Come here." She laid a firm grip on Piotr's unhurt shoulder and led him inside, following Al and Pete. Piotr looked much like the soft and sensitive, emotional artist that would so easily slide into depression, but by now, Meggan knew better. Kitty was just approaching the outer door when it opened, and Allathea dragged Pete inside. "What? What happened?" A signature bamf announced Kurt's entrance, just as Meggan and Piotr passed through the doorway. "Mein Gott!" Kurt took in the scene and drew the right conclusion without missing a beat. He immediately flanked Piotr. "Oh, God. Pete- " Kitty moved to help Al with Pete, her faced etched with worry. Colossus did not react well to her concerns. "Katya-" Meggan felt the rolling, burning, emotional energy flare inside Piotr again. Allathea's gaze also swung to watch the Russian. Meggan moved to shift her grasp, but Kurt was quicker, all too aware of the look in Piotr's eyes. He made a quick movement, striking Piotr with sharp precision and knocking him out. Meggan slid beneath the large man to support his weight as she directed Kitty. "Kitty? Would you phase Pete down to the medlab? Kurt and I will bring Piotr down." Kitty nodded, shifting the rest of Pete's weight off Allathea. They quickly sank and vanished through the floor. Allathea looked warily at the unconscious Piotr, and then began to quickly walk ahead of them and towards the medlab. Meggan's own anger had been soothed enough for her to notice the jumbled emotions that were plaguing the girl. Not only was Al angry and defensive on behalf of Pete, she was also utterly terrified. But it wasn't Piotr that was frightening her. Meggan also noted the changes in Allathea's body. Her form seemed to have developed, more athletic and strong, filling out the worn clothing. Yet, even as she noticed this, the changes were slowly disappearing. "Allathea, are you all right? Were you injured?" Kurt noted her appearance as well, the small tears and streaks of dirt on her clothing catching his attention. "I'm okay," she answered softly. "I'll be fine."