Subject: [OTL]: [Psylocke]: Katana, 5/5 Date: Fri, 9 Jul 1999 21:26:19 -0700 (PDT) From: "Emily R. Snyder" Ok. This is the last this week, I think. I finally finished it! :) See previous parts for disclaimer. You can get it at Lyssie's (http://members.xoom.com/_XOOM/LysAna/em.htm). Just scroll 'til you find it. :) If you're alreayd archiving this piece, take this part too. If you're not, ask. Katana My leg is gone. I have to accept that. They asked if I wanted a prothesis, but I said no. Gone is gone, and I'm not sure I want it back. I have to deal with my mistakes. Warren is much more considerate now. He is constantly asking, "Do you need some water? How about a candy bar? Are you feelign all right?" He pushes my wheel chair everywhere, even when he knows perfectly well I can do it myself. Before he takes me somewhere, he checks to see if they have ramps. It's very sweet. I love him. He holds me, through the bad dreams and the phantom pain. He isn't ashamed of me. He takes me places. We never go dancing, of course. Never to a nightclub. Always some posh little place. He seems to know I'd hate to see anyone dancing. He took all the weapons out of our apartment. I haven't seen a katana since I lost my leg. I almost hate being 'pampered' like this. I grew up a little rich girl. I wanted to get away from that and do things on my own so badly I could taste the blood. The independence is almost all gone now. Maybe...maybe I don't mind the non-stop babying. Should I get the prothesis after all? I'd like to walk again. But I'd hate to lose all the support Warren gives me. I know that that was silly to say, but it's true. I think it would be best to leave things as they are right now. The challenge that everyday life has become takes my mind off the Shadow King. I don't obsess so much, at least. I've not had any near slips in over three months. I...I think I'm happier this way. . === "When I get a little money, I buy books; and if there is any left, I buy food and clothes." --Erasmus