Dear Professor Xavier
by Gevaisa
Excerpt from
a letter from Jean Grey-Summers to Scott Summers: "I think it's now Kitty's turn to be more open and honest than she
has heretofore been." Professor Xavier continued. "Me?" she squeaked. "But I have been honest!" "But you could be more open." suggested the Professor. She
turned bright pink again, and an array of the most fascinating thoughts
crossed her mind, so intensely that I couldn't help but hear them.
"Iâ€"uhhâ€"Help?" She looked around. "Perhaps I should begin for
her." I said. I wasn't sure what she would come out with, otherwise.
"From Kitty's letters to us, I can tell you that she is afraid that you
have an uncontrollably violent temper. She doesn't believe you would
ever hurt her, but she doesn't want to spend her married life in a
state of constant tension, having to watch out for the next
'unfortunate incident.' Isn't that true, Kitty?" "Yes." she admitted. "I
understand exactly what she means, because I turned down an offer of
marriage made to me by a man who I found very attractive, for the same
reason. Living with one's nerves continually on edge leads one to
develop great big bleeding holes in one's stomach." Erik looked
at Kitty. "It's true." she told him. "You nearly strangled the doctor,
and I don't know what you would have done to the Daroga. I'm not saying
it's the only reason I wouldn't marry you, but it would be a large part
of it." "But there is nothing simpler," he declared. "If you ask
it, I will never raise my hand or my voice to another living beingâ€"save
in self-defense. I will be as gentle as a lamb, and you can do what you
like with meâ€"if you will onlyâ€"care for me." "I've known some pretty rambunctious lambs," she said. "I don't know
how to put this, exactly..." "Saying
what you think and expressing how you feel will ultimately lead to
fewer hurt feelings and fewer misunderstandings." urged the Professor. "I
guessâ€"I appreciate what you're offering to do for my sake," she
explained, carefully, "but I would much rather you didn't attack people
because you don't want toâ€"because in most cases it's wrong, and you
know it's wrongâ€"instead of not doing it just because you want to please
me. I know that's a lot tougherâ€"but that's what I want." "Oh."
His face took on the expression of a man with a very intricate problem
to work out, or else a severe case of indigestion; the symptoms are
much the same. "You see, in telling you about this now,"
Professor Xavier expounded, "it may be possible for you to learn to
control your impulsesâ€"rather than that you should wait until June to
hear it." He turned to Kitty. "Waiting for him to think of it himself,
or waiting for him to read your mind are terribly imprecise ways of
communicating your concerns. You should try to voice them more openly
in the future." "I'll try, Professor." she promised. "The
problem is," Erik confessed. "That I don't know how. I don't know where
to begin." He sounded very young and very lost as he said it. "May I
askâ€"when you speak about June, when you mentioned Katherine's married
lifeâ€"Would you truly countenance a marriage between us?" He asked it
with trepidation; this was yet another mask taken off, in its way. "If Kitty loves you and wants to marry you, what could we do but
give you our blessing?" Auroré answered. "You
may not be the boy next door, exactly, but you're certainly the man who
lives a few blocks over, so to speak," I added. "Among the Evolved,
you're not a despised outcastâ€"although if you worked at it hard enough,
you probably could become one. Instead, you're an attractive, healthy
man in the prime of his life, you're very talented, you have an
interesting profession and a steady incomeâ€"which is rare among the
Evolved. In other words, you're not merely an eligible bachelor, you're
quite the catch. This does not exempt you from learning to control your
temper!" The Professor did not give him a moment to think, but
continued our friendly assault on Erik's preconceived notions. "Are you
familiar with your Plato? We all of us begin down in the darkest
cavern, where, in chains of our own devising, we sit huddled up,
enthralled by the shadows flickering on the wall, which, knowing
nothing else, we take to be the sum and total of the world. It is only
through effort, and no little pain, that we can gain our freedom, move
up and out into truth, and stand at last in the light of day. You are
simply beginning rather more literally than most of us." "What we
want, most of all," Sir Erich took over, "is Kitty's greatest good and
greatest happinessâ€"and yours as well. (And grandchildren,") he added,
sotto voce. "You are one of us. You have always been one of us. I only
regret that we had not found you sooner." "In other words," I translated. "You're allowed and encouraged to
ask us for help." He
was starting to look a bit pale again. I was afraid we were going to
have a reprise of his earlier moment, when he looked into our hearts
and knew us to be sincere, but he got his breathing and his emotions
under control. From thereâ€"to give him time to compose himselfâ€"we
turned to the mundane topic of what we were going to do next. Sir Erich
repeated his invitation to dinner, and pressed Erik to join us. I
think he would have refused, except that Kitty caught his eye and gave
him an appealing look. I heard her whisper, "Please. It's important." Eventually,
we made our way back out to the street by way of the Rue Scribe exit
from Erik's home. We went to Sir Erich's hotel, Kitty went home with
her ballet mistress, and Erik simply went back inside. After all, we
needed to dress. I have now reached the end of my energy and the
end of that impulse to write that made me sit down and pen this to you.
I will tell you the rest in person. All my love, Your wife, Jean.