Through Glass
 
Author: Lilithangel
 
Email: abchainey@xtra.co.nz
 
Website: www.livejournal.com/users/lilithbint
 
Fandom: BtVS
 
Character: Spike
 
Genre: angst
 
Rating/warnings: Gen
 
Summary: Spike makes one last stop before returning to Sunnydale after getting his soul back.  Written for the Batpack Songfic Challenge – Through Glass by Stone Sour, video can be found here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZX6j8xdbLiw
 
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Should be a reflection there, the soul didn't give that back.  Just this overwhelming forever of guilt.
 
Watching you through the glass you look beaten somehow.  There is no more comfort here than in the stars I cannot see in this golden city.
 
Was supposed to fix things not make the voices so loud, make the bitterness a jacket to replace the one I left behind with her.
 
Look up now, would you see me am I just a reflection that isn't even there.  So lonely in here you never told me how lonely it would be. 
 
I cannot even hate you now.  You sit there like a mannequin a puppet with broken strings.  I am not you and you are not me but my strings are broken too.
 
No more lies there will be no comfort here.
 
It hurts sire but you always knew that.  Will it hurt forever?
 
FIN
 
Through Glass
 

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has past
Oh, God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you
That forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

How do you feel?
That is the question
But I forget
You don't expect an easy answer

When something like a soul
Becomes initialized
And folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect the bitter folks
And while your outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what your staring at is me

Cause' I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has past
All I know is that it feels like forever
And no one ever tells you
That forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

How much is real
So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
Contaminating everything
And if that came from the heart
It never did, right from the start
Just listen to the noises(Now I'm more, instead of voices)

Before You tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has past
Now all I know is that feels like forever
And no one ever tells you
That forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

Cause' I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has past
Now all I know is that it feels like forever
And no one ever tells you
That forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars... the stars... that shine for you
And it's the stars... the stars... that lie to you

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has past
Oh, God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you
That forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

Cause' I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has past
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you
That forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars... the stars... that shine for you
And it's the stars... the stars... that lie to you
And it's the stars... the stars... that shine for you
And it's the stars... the stars... that lie to you

Oh, when the stars... Oh, when the stars... they lie