Author: Lilithangel
Email: abchainey@xtra.co.nz
Website: www.livejournal.com/users/lilithbint
Fandom: AtS
Character: Angel
Genre: angst
Summary: I was browsing Tami Brandt's video site http://www.skyefaerie.net/fanfiction/tvideos.html and My Immortal made me wonder how Angel would have reacted if Spike did disappear for good in Season 5. 250 words again.
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"You stupid git..."
I turn at the voice but he's not there.
Wes theorised that he was never here, that what came out of the amulet was just a memory. The power unleashed in Sunnydale imprinting something of him on the amulet.
But it sounded liked him, looked like him, sure as hell annoyed me like he did.
Fred tried to bring him back properly but even she said he wasn't a normal ghost. What's a normal ghost anyway?
I wanted him gone I really did, wanted that annoying voice to stop and that damn smirk to disappear. And then it did. He just faded away and never came back.
And now... now I want him back so badly I hear his voice everyday.
He drove me crazy when he was alive or undead, whatever he was. Pointing out my weakness telling me I was not all powerful. Like I needed him to tell me that. Reminding me time and again of what I had sacrificed for another.
My one last link to a past we shared. A past I thought I wanted forgotten until he was gone.
I know the things he would have picked me up on so I hear his voice when I do them. Calling me a git and a pounce but always at my side.
He wouldn't have approved but he would have still stood beside me, and I don't know if the others will.
I never expected to miss him but I'm alone now.
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