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1.1.1 WEAPONS/ FORM/ WORD Eurynome the neverending
descend: to swoop or pounce down (as in a sudden attack) thread: to pass a thread through the eye of a needle
1.1.2 WEAPONS/ FORM/ WORLD it was always different for her, with him, right from the first encounter. "do we really need weapons for this?" she said to him, and his body spoke to her in his answer. lesson the first. the bells gave warning then of the near approach of the Wild Hunt, chasse Arlequin. he who woke from a dream to journey to the land of death. so here they are, on opposite sides of that one last river. the trouble always was, both of them loved the dance too much to stop. both built for hunting, evenly matched, exhilarated every time they upped the stakes. beautiful and wild and, within the dance, free. no quarter. grace. and so they circled, endlessly wary, around one another. allies under a temporary truce. she gave him mercy, he gave her help. he gave his heart, she took his flesh. all that life, pouring out of his undead shell, kept her alive in a bad year. he gave her pain, she gave it back. he erased himself, and started over. he gave up all his natural weapons, and he knelt before her judgment. she gave him trust, on a battlefield.
1.1.3 WEAPONS/ FORM/ MAKER spiralling down, through the dark matter of empty space. whirlpools in which she drowns again, over and over. nightmares in which she is bitten, and drinks, and wakes to find herself undone, unmade, undead, unloved, abandoned. spiralling up, he wakes to
all the memories of death he dealt, of harm. and thinks, for a moment,
to find her, keep her safe somehow from harm, from him. and he remembers
her, so bright it hurts his eyes, lost in the dark.
1.2.1 WEAPONS/ DIVINATION/ PROPHECY the challenge that causes
(found poem, from: definition of aventure, P.M. Matarasso, The Quest of the Holy Grail)
1.2.2 WEAPONS/DIVINATION/ TARA Do you mind if I walk beside you awhile? I'm afraid to look behind me. Don't worry. We'll make a garden of it someday. On your way back you'll see. Sure I'll be coming back then? Nobody else is. It will be okay. How do you know? Let's see, I know he'll wait for you to come forever. And I know you won't give up until you find him. Et voila! I really miss you. I'm always here. Earth and air, you know, both you and me. We're still connected.
1.2.3 WEAPONS/ DIVINATION/ FATES a man in Caithness saw in a vision
(Nora Chadwick, The Celts)
1.3.1 WEAPONS/ CHORUS/ FORCES OF EVIL Irina, hey, Lilah here. Listen,
things in the office are going all to hell and I just can't get away. Can
I ask a favor? All the lines are down, and I need to send a message to
the Senior Partners, make sure I'm covered on this. Yeah, in the contract
it's dealt with, I think, Clause 39b? Okay, just say the Slayer's entered
the playing field. They'll know what I mean.
1.3.2 WEAPONS/ CHORUS/ FORCES OF BALANCE Okay, so the question is,
do we want to intervene? Girl's got a history of confounding prophecy,
as we have cause to know. And a temper worthy of the Irish, I mean: my
ribcage for a hat. So small, and there she is still standing after so long.
The Angel intervention, in retrospect, probably a mistake. And now the
whole prophecy racket is far from a sure bet, two vampires with soul, ya
gotta admit nobody could have predicted that. Yeah, yeah, I'm thinking
that too, best to leave it alone, see how the thing works out. Maybe no
cause for alarm. One thing I know, that girl doesn't take too well to interventions.
1.3.3 WEAPONS/ CHORUS/ FORCES OF GOOD Dawn? Are you there? I can see the first stairwell ahead. I wish I could have gone to guard your back. I'm ready. But what if the monks made me for some other purpose? This is what you were made for, Dawn. To open all the doors between dimensions. But I'm way darker than you inside, you know. Not sure that's true. But even if: wasn't it some vampire that told you once you didn't have to be good to be okay? Use what you have. Buffy? He was so good to me, when you were gone, he really was. I'm just not strong like you. Sisters, remember? Summers blood. It's not our gifts, it's mom who taught us to be strong. Promise you're coming back. If I can, I'll come. Tara says we're going to plant gardens. Tara's there? Really? I'm so glad. Bring me back something good? Working on it. Tell Willow it's time now to start to sing.
1.4.1 WEAPONS/ SOLILOQUY/ ANGEL No weapons, no friends, no
hope. Of course I remember. Whatever the 'I' entails. Angelus and I, between
the two of us, we separated the Slayer from her strongest weapons, the
purity of her soul and the radiance of her light. Gifts she gave to me
freely, but after Angelus came and she skewered me to close the portal
she hid them away and never took them out again. Now, every time she dies,
I know who to blame.
1.4.2 WEAPONS/ SOLILOQUY/ SPIKE Once I lived caught in the
moment of death myself, the death of Slayers, of William, of everyone I
ever ate, and called that glory. Master of the Wild Hunt. Red Man with
Half a Cart. Dru was the Mistress of reading entrails, but the making of
death answered the call of chaos in me, and I went willingly to all its
pleasures. Waded in red blood to the knee, did William the Rhymer. It was
her made ashes of it, every pose, every sodding construct I put up against
her, all crashing down against the reality of what she was in herself.
The weight of her regard. Her best weapon. "Do we really need weapons for
this?" she said to me the first time I fought her. She didn't need to be
armored against me, she was herself the weapon that brought me down.
1.4.3 WEAPONS/ SOLILOQUY/ BUFFY Weapons chest, hope chest, aren't they just what every girl born ever wanted? I have wielded the hammer of a god, and plundered signage for a stake. Why do I have to stake them in the heart that doesn't beat? This is not a sensible occupation. Every so often, I wish the world would make sense. Every so often, though, gotta admit, I wish there was blood in the fridge and a vampire in my bed. Maybe it's an attention span thing: apocalypse on the way, right, perfect time to go looking for poor lost vampires who have gone astray. I know it's stupid to feel guilty, but he did all of it for me. I hardly noticed how he changed, or how much I hurt him, but he kept me alive all that desperate year, at great cost to himself. He wanted so little in return, and I gave nothing back. Not a smile, not a crumb, not a word. I took what I needed, as if he was nothing. I hated him for everything he did for me. I felt unclean and I took it out on him. I think in the end he would have preferred it if I'd killed him. Or let Xander kill him. Guess I kinda got sex and death tangled up together. Basis of western civilization, or so I hear. The ordinary world doesn't have much to say about souls these days. In some ways, I find him scarier with than without. I wonder what that says about me. But I have to accept that Mr Formerly Bad is a work in progress. And so am I. Good times, bad times. I am not the stuff of dreams. And I'm not sure what he is any more. He could rightly say the same about me. But there is.... I trust him to.... I believe in....There is something there. Worth going for. A good man inside him. Someone who sees me as I am, and still cares. He wouldn't choose to leave me. I won't just leave him there, I can't. It's too late to brandish
weapons in his direction. He'll only kneel down and offer himself and break
my heart. I think it was always too late. Besides, do we really need weapons
for this?
1.5.1 WEAPONS/ ECHO/ WITNESS ARIAS But the thing with Angel, wasn't that supposed to be forever? So romantic. Couldn't you just die? Yeah, they both died. He couldn't save her because, no breath. She couldn't save him because, world in peril. Also, not too romantic when the curse kicked in. Getting a happy acquired a whole new meaning. Entering a nunnery acquired a new appeal. How could Angel and Angelus be so different? Spike's soul didn't make him not-Spike. And even as a demon he had long since stopped wanting to kill Buffy. Angelus certainly meant to kill her. Unsouled Spike, on the other hand, teamed up with her to stop him. No fun for Buffy to have to send her boyfriend to hell to close the portal. Not much fun for Jenny, either, or Giles. So how come there's a horrific Angelus inside a good Angel souled, while Spike is just kinda Spike, not so much bad or good but hovering in the middle, co-existing with William and determined not to hurt Buffy. But Angel is noble. Spike's not noble. What, you're kidding me,
right? Angel was cursed with his soul: you think Angelus was just too bashful
to admit he really wanted one of his own? Give it up.
1.5.2 WEAPONS/ ECHO/ MEMORY Inanna the Goddess of Heaven and Earth, of War and Fertility,
(from The Cycle of Inanna)
1.5.3 WEAPONS/ ECHO/ INVOCATION Elements of dark and light, hear me.
1.6.1 WEAPONS/ PLAINSONG/ BARD'S TALE And the Slayer came to the
keeper of the first gate. "Let me through", she said. "Where is your token?"
"I come unprepared. What would you have from me?" "Every weapon you own."
"Done." And the gate opened, and the Slayer walked through empty-handed,
her burden lighter. And descended the stairs.
1.6.2 WEAPONS/ PLAINSONG/ LYRIC she piles them all there, by the stairs.
1.6.3 WEAPONS/ PLAINSONG/ BALLAD What will you give me, Joan of Arc,
I did not seek this calling out
How will you keep this whole world safe
I have been called and I will stand
I will go unarmed if I must
I would give everything I am
And I confess I wish that cup
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