Title: Into the Light
Series: A NEW LIFE
Author: MarieC
Email: mariecynthia2003@yahoo.com
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Archive: www.the-crypt.net
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Pairing: Spike/Angel
Spoilers: Spike is chipped; Angel is Spike's Sire; No Fred or Connor;
Buffy did not die;
Rating: NC-17
Warning: Transgender fic, rape
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters. They belong to Joss
Whedon, ME, WB,
UPN
**Note: It is essential to read "Changes", "Transition" and "Into the
Depths" before this story**
Summary: Spike is bitten by a demon in Sunnydale and has turned into
a female vampire. Angel takes her to LA after she is raped.
Many thanks to Ghostsforge for beta help and suggestions

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Chapter 1

Angel sat at Spike's bedside holding her hand as he patiently waited
for her to arise from her deep sleep. He knew she would be confused
when she regained consciousness. He hoped their bond was re-
established after sharing his blood with her. Angel stroked her
petite hand as he watched her sleep peacefully.

Angel felt her twitch and suddenly Spike sat up in bed gasping. Her
eyes darted across the room attempting to recognize her surroundings.
She looked at Angel who was still holding her hand.

"Spike, it's okay. We are in my room. See? Shh...calm down baby, it's
okay." Spike's breathing slowed down as she perused the room. Angel
wiped droplets of sweat that had accumulated on her brow.

"Sire?" Spike spoke quietly as she gazed at Angel. She noticed that
she was now in his room. Her brain was muddled as she struggled to
recall recent events. As those memories slowly returned, her cerulean
eyes widened. She looked upon her wrists and noticed they were
wrapped in gauze. She slowly looked upon her Sire.

"Angel? I'm sorry..." Tears rushed from her mournful eyes.

Angel gently touched her face. "No, honey. There is nothing for you
to be sorry about." He lifted her chin as she attempted to avert her
eyes away. "Listen to me. I am the one who should be sorry. I left
you on your own. I didn't push hard enough for you to talk to me.
Spike," Angel sighed and looked down for a moment, "I almost lost
you." Tears fell from the eyes of the dark vampire. "I don't think I
could bear it. I wish I could make you see how much I love you. You
are so important to me. I know I am not always the best at conveying
my emotions. If I had lost you..." Angel voice choked with emotion.

"How long did I sleep?" She asked with wide-eyed innocence.

"Two and a half days." Angel answered as he continued to stroke
Spike's hand.

"I feel you...inside me." Spike whispered as she gazed into Angel's
eyes. "I know you love me. I feel your regret and your pain and your
loneliness because I felt those things too. I know you are sorry
about our past. I can see why, with your soul, you made certain
choices. I want to believe you so much, Angel; but it scares me. I
want you in my unlife, but I always seem to be the one who gets hurt.
I can't bear it if you leave me or worse..." She briefly thought of
Angelus' reappearance in Sunnydale.

"I know. I can't promise you I won't do some stupid things; but I
will never leave you again. I would rather be dust. " He said sadly
as his eyes glistened. He caressed her cheek. "When I said a few
months ago that I wanted to start anew, I meant it. I want you in my
unlife, Spike. I want you to fight by my side; I want us to be able
to trust each other and share everything. And I want to touch you,
worship you, and make love to you..." Spike lowered her head as he
spoke.

"Spike. Honey. I would not force you to do anything that you were not
ready for." Angel spoke with conviction.

"I know, Angel." Fresh tears pored from her eyes. "It's just..." Her
voiced trailed off.

"Talk to me, please." Angel pleaded.

Spike brushed her long hair from her eyes as she lifted her head to
speak to her Sire. "After what happened to me..." She paused for a
moment. "Why would you want to be with me? I'm tainted and damaged.
How can you even look at me?" She started sobbing. Angel embraced her
tightly as he stroked her long honey blonde locks.

"Why would you think that? You are so beautiful and desirable and
utterly amazing." Spike attempted to turn away as he relaxed his
embrace. "Please don't turn away, baby. I don't want you to be
embarrassed. We will take our time. We still need to deal with what
happened in Sunnydale. But, I need you to realize that I am here to
support you all the way. I want to build a new life with you...if you
will have me. I am yours." Angel smiled warmly at his beautiful
Childe.

"And I am yours...I need you, Angel...I love you." She smiled as she
looked into the angelic face of her Sire.

"I love you too." Angel whispered as he slowly leaned towards his
beautiful Childe and gently kissed her. He was ecstatic as he felt
her cool soft lips melt into his. The two vampires reveled in the
feeling that after so many years apart, after all the pain and the
hurt, they were one.

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