"I
don't think that Angel will be coming," Buffy whispered. She looked
down at her battered hands. How was she going to tell the others that
she suspected that Angel knew about the spell three years ago when he
returned from Hell? Spike heard the
question silently spoken by his mate. Luv, what do you
mean? he questioned silently. He was rewarded with the
insight about the instant the spell broke for Buffy. It was when she
hit the dimensional barrier opened with Dawn's blood. Spike saw himself
through her eyes as he lay on the ground bleeding from the fall from
the tower. Then, he watched as Buffy told Angel to close his eyes,
kissed him, and rammed the sword through Angel's stomach. Spike watched
as Angel was sucked into the portal opened by Acathla. He returned to
his mate's side, and he took her hands into his before she could hurt
them by twisting them together too much. "Why
don't you think so, Buffy?" Willow asked. She noticed the silent
understanding spark between Buffy and Spike. Willow watched as the
vampire and the Slayer exchanged a look of silent communication. This
was a look she had seen before between the two blonds, but with the new
informaton those looks took on new meaning. So, she wasn't surprised
when Spike answered her question instead of Buffy. "The
Slayer thinks that the son of a bitch has known about the spell ever
since Hell spit his sorry ass back into this dimension," Spike growled.
His anger at his grandsire hung on every word. For
several century long minutes silence reigned over the Magic Box. The
pandemonium that followed caused the still traumatized Slayer to cover
her ears and whimper. Her nerves were now on overload from finding
herself in her grave, the subsquent climb to the surface, and the
reconnection to Spike. The reactions of her friends over the knowledge
that Angel knew about the spell and decided it was best not to confide
in anyone sent her over the edge of sanity. Spike
felt the panic inside his mate escalate, and his ire jumped right along
with it. A soft growl started deep in his chest that grew with its
intensity until it drowned out the rest of the noise. All eyes swung
around to look at the irate master vampire and the quaking woman
sitting beside him with her face buried in her hands. Dawn
slid closer to Buffy, and she put her arms around her sister. She
whispered reassurances into her older sibling's ear. At the back of her
mind though, Dawn wondered how exactly the monks were able to insert
the memories of her childhood into two different sets of awareness. "What is it with him and his need to decide what's
best for others?" Cordelia growled. "Who?
Angel or Giles?" Dawn asked. She caught the look on the seer's face.
Dawn was glad she wasn't involved in the spell in any way. "I
meant Angel. That lying sack of..." Cordelia stopped to consider the
actions of the men in question, "But I guess Giles falls in the same
category, doesn't he?" "Those two won't be
making any decisions for us ever again," Dawn hissed, "I can't believe
Angel told Buffy to get a normal boyfriend knowing that she was mated
to Spike." She reached over, and she gripped Spike's hand. "Wow, and
you fell in love with Buffy even with the spell in force, Spike. That's
amazing, poetic even." "Wasn't just him,
Dawnie," Buffy whispered, "I fell in love, too. After he protected your
identity how could I not?" She leaned into the vampire's shoulder.
"Things happened so fast, though. I was scared to say anything." Buffy
allowed her feelings to wash over Spike. "W-why were you scared, Buffy?" Tara asked. She was
sitting next to Dawn. So, she had heard what the Slayer had whispered. Buffy
glanced up into Spike's face, and then she attempted to twist her hands
together in her lap. A single tear trickled down Buffy's face when
Spike grabbed her hands to still them, and he kissed her on the
forehead. "It's okay, luv," Spike said quietly, "You can tell
them." "The
spell filled me with so much hatred," Buffy glanced around at the
others in the room, "So, when I realized I had fallen in love with
another vampire, I was terrified, and yet, I just had to kiss him to
know what it felt like again." She traced her lips with her fingers.
"Then I thought of all of you and how upset you would get. I knew how
upset Giles would get if I got involved with another vampire especially
since this one evil and soulless." Spike
winced beside Buffy. He understood where she was coming from. Honestly,
he did. Angelus had done a real number on the Slayer and her friends
while he had toured Sunnyhell years before. Understanding her feelings
didn't make it hurt any less. Buffy
collected her thoughts, and she stared off into space while she
continued talking, "I think though, that was because part of me
remembered Giles doing the spell. I felt helpless when he blew the dust
on me so I couldn't move. He made it so I couldn't get Spike away from
Angel or get to Giles to make him shut up." Spike
knew how distressed Buffy felt about being helpless. Her memories
shifted around, and he relived his mate's 18th birthday. He learned how
Giles had made his charge helpless at the Council's request. He knew
how she felt when she found the photo of her kidnapped mother, and how
she had fought a crazed vampire with nothing but her wits. He realized
that her two most vulnerable moments had happened at the hands of her
Watcher. This had affected her more deeply than anything ever had
before or since. Spike felt admiration for the strength of his Slayer. "At
the time, I was so scared something would happen, and I would have to
kill another person I loved." Buffy's fingers slid through a lock of
Dawn's dark brown hair, and her voice turned fierce. "Especially after
Giles told me I had to kill Dawn to save the world. A little dolly told
me that if Giles and Angel hadn't played God with us, I wouldn't have
had to die. We would have seen Glory for what she was from the
beginning." "What little dolly?" Dawn
asked. She thought that those words coming from her sister were very
strange. Was all this really driving Buffy over the edge that far? "Can
I have something to drink, please?" Buffy asked. She waited to continue
until after Anya brought her a glass of water. "Limbo's an interesting
place. You meet the most interesting people there. I
met Liam. He's a drunken womanizer, and you'd think after that many
years he would outgrow the tendencies, wouldn't you? I also met Edith.
She was so sweet and innocent, and I liked her." Spike
jumped just a bit when Buffy said the name Edith. He has spent over 100
years hauling around Drusilla's doll, Miss Edith. Spike felt a little
smirk come through the claim, and he suddenly feared that his mate was
going to reveal all of his secrets. "Then I
met Will." Buffy leaned in very close to Spike, and she whispered into
his ear too low for anyone to hear. That included her sister sitting
right next to her, "I adore nerdy poets." Spike
pretended to mishear what the Slayer had whispered to him. He was still
evil, you know. "You adore dirty poems, luv? I have the perfect one to
tell you. I heard it at kitten poker the other night. There was a demon
from Nantucket..." Spike stopped speaking when Buffy clapped a hand
over his mouth. Buffy had seen where the
joke was going. She hissed loudly at her mate, "Not in front of Dawn. I
said nerdy poets, not dirty poems." This caused the others to start
giggling. Spike blanched even paler than
normal, until he realized that the laughter the others were engaged in
wasn't cruel. He even managed a chuckle or two himself before Xander
decided it was his turn to speak up. "See,
this is what they took away from me. A guy to make jokes with," Xander
announced, "There are just some things that only another male
understands." He sighed. He'd spent the last several years feeling like
the odd man out in a sea of estrogen when he was suppose to have had a
true male friend instead. "Did you just call me a guy, Harris?" Spike snarked. Xander
thought about what he had just said, and he chuckled, "I guess I did."
Xander sensed the return of what he felt towards the vampire before
Giles's hate spell. He remembered bonding over jock terrorization and
pool. It made Xander ashamed of how he treated Spike for the past
couple of years. Xander put his best foot forward, and he took a leap.
"I'm sorry about how I've treated you the past few years. I hope we can
be friends, again." "No worries, mate.
Can't help what you can't remember." Spike stuck his hand out towards
the other man. "I seem to remember your pool playing skills have
improved. Maybe we should get together so I can wipe up the Bronze with
your arse." Xander narrowed his eyes at
the vampire, and then his face broke out in a grin. He grabbed Spike's
hand. Xander teased, his voice full of confidence, "I'd like to see you
try." "We'll make it a double date. Me
and the Slayer and you and the demon-bird," Spike announced. The years
of hate filled taunting disappeared, and it was replaced by the banter
of two long lost friends. Dawn laid her hand on Buffy's arm to get her
attention. "What was this Will like?" "Oh
Dawnie, he was..." Buffy bit her lower lip when she glanced up at Spike
from under her lashes, "Beautiful. You could see the chord that
connected him to his earthly body. It was so ... eflugent." "Slayer," Spike growled in caution. "Well,
he was, Spike," Buffy assured her mate, "And it was. The chord was as
bright as a sun. Edith had one, too, but it wasn't as bright as Will's.
We won't talk about Liam except to say I should have kicked him harder
in the nuts in the mall." "What about the
bitch?" Spike asked. He was curious about where Darla was in this
little story of Buffy's. Spike ignored the curious looks the others
gave him. "Will said she disappeared some
time ago, and she hadn't returned. I think Cordy can tell us about
Darla," Buffy answered. She turned her attention from Spike to Cordelia. "Last
year Wolfram and Hart somehow resurrected Darla," Cordelia announced,
"Before you say she was dusted by Angel. Yeah, she was, but they
undusted her and made her living. Well, and dying, too." "What do you mean?" Willow asked. "Grandmum
loved to brag that the Master rescued her from her deathbed," Spike
informed the redheaded witch, "Seems she was dying from that nasty
little disease Harris had for Thanksgiving just a couple of years ago.
Of course, hers wasn't a mystical curse from Native Amercian
vengeance spirits. She was a whore." "Why
the hell would anyone bring back that... ?" Dawn was at a loss of word
for the right word to call Darla, but that was a good thing since both
Spike and Buffy were giving her a look that said 'you better not
continue that question'. "Wolfram and Hart
wanted Angelus to reemerge." Cordelia seemed to be lost in her
memories. "They didn't get the reaction they expected." She shuddered
as she remembered the events of the previous winter. Spike
glanced at Buffy to gauge her reaction to what Cordelia said, and he
felt her reassurances of his place in her life pass over him. He
smirked down at her when he reminded her of one of their past bad
experiences that involved chains and jealous exs. "That's when he let
the bitch and Dru eat the lawyers, isn't it?" Cordelia gasped, "How did you know that?" She was
quite sure Angel hadn't shared any confidences with the Sunnydale
people. "Had a right informative little visit from Dru this
past spring. Didn't we, pet?" Spike directed his question to Buffy. "You didn't mention dead lawyers, though, Spike,"
Buffy replied. She arched an eyebrow at the vampire. "Had our own little drama goin', luv," Spike
continued to smirk at Buffy. Buffy
looked down at her hands in shame as she remembered her reaction to
Spike's declaration of love. The cruel jibes paired with the disinvite
spell had caused more heartbreak in the amorous vampire. Buffy's own
fear of rejection caused the Slayer not to reveal that her own feelings
towards Spike had changed. "I was scared of you, too, Spike." "Ah
luv," Spike whispered. He gathered his mate into his arms and into his
lap. Spike was privy to the inside info on all of Buffy's past
relationships, and that was before they reestablished the claim. "The
things I did and said before I died," Buffy murmured, "If you rejected
me right now, I wouldn't blame you." She played with a button Spike's
duster, and she pushed her lower lip out into a bit of a pout. Spike
looked at the quivering lower lip, and he growled, "Pouty." He curled
his tongue behind his upper teeth when Buffy's head shot up, and she
stared into his eyes. "You gonna get it?"
Buffy whispered. She smiled into the kiss that Spike planted on her
lips. "Oh, stop." Memories of their brief engagement during Willow's
"Thy Will Be Done" spell emerged, and she felt herself melting further
into Spike's embrace. Spike pulled slightly
away from Buffy. "You've made me the happiest man in the world. Do you
really think I'm goin' to reject you now that 've got you right where
've always wanted you?" Buffy wiggled
around on Spike's lap, and she shoved her hands into her jeans pocket.
When she pulled her hand out of her pocket, the others saw a flash of
silver that she quickly dropped into Spike's hand. "Forgot
you never gave that back, pet," Spike remarked. He gently put the
silver skull ring on Buffy's left hand. "I can't believe you kept it." "Not
every day a girl gets engaged," Buffy said in return, "Even if it is to
her mortal enemy." She smiled up at Spike when she cupped his jaw with
her hand. "Can I be blind, too?" Xander
teased. He grinned when Spike and Buffy turned to stare at him, and the
three of them burst out laughing. Everyone, except an extremely bored
Anya, looked at them like they were crazy. "You guys are really weird," Dawn grumbled. "No,
they're just pretending that Willow's spell happened again, and they're
engaged again. Xander wants to be blind like Giles." Anya grimaced as a
thought hit her. "Does that mean because you announced your engagement
before mine, I have to wait to get married until after you do?" "Anya!"
Xander got a 'deer in the headlights' look on his face. "We agreed we
weren't supposed to say anything till the time was right." "Well, Spike and Buffy basically announced their
re-engagement," Anya pointed out, "So why can't we announce ours?" "I
think you just did, demon-girl," Spike chuckled around his words. He
refused to relinquish his grip on Buffy as she struggled in his lap.
After a few seconds she resigned herself to being trapped against the
vampire's body. "Congratulations Anya,
Xander," Buffy said from the confines of Spike's arms. The others
seemed to have been waiting to see Spike and Buffy's response to the
announcement. As soon as they saw the blonde couple's reaction to the
news, the rest gathered around the darker haired couple to ooh and ahh
over Anya's ring. Spike held up Buffy's
hand with his ring on it. He whispered into her ear. "I'm goin' to get
you something a lot nicer than this." Cordelia
suddenly began to sneeze violently. She pressed her fists to her head
when she spat out the word vision from between gritted teeth. "Grab her before she falls," Spike shouted loudly. He
recognized the signs of a person having a violent vision. Xander
and Willow grabbed the oblivious Cordelia and helped her back into her
chair. Anya rushed to the bathroom for cool rags after Spike informed
her that the woman would probably have a killer headache when the
vision was over. Tara gathered ingredients for a spell to help ease the
headache. Buffy and Dawn sat out of the way, and they let the others do
the work for a change. "Woozy," Cordelia
muttered groggily. She moaned in pleasure when Anya gently laid a cool
rag on her forehead. "I saw Buffy fighting a demon, but it's
incorporeal. Willow and Tara chanting ... the demon is solid ... Buffy
kills it." She sighed in relief as the small spell that Tara chanted
took the edge off her pain. "Have the nose
bleeds started yet?" Anya asked in a very serious voice. She barely
noticed the others looking at her as she continued on. "I've seen it
before. Humans just are not strong enough to handle the visions sent by
the Powers That Be. You've lasted longer than any of the others." "What's
going to happen to her?" Tara asked quietly. She could sense how much
pain the ex-cheerleader was in. If this happened every time, the gentle
hearted Wicca had no idea how Cordy kept a smiling face. "First
there are headaches that debilitate the seer. Then the nose bleeds
start," Anya replied very matter of factly, "Usually that's followed by
a gradual loss of brain function until the day the vision actually
causes the brain to be scrambled. This usually leaves the seer either
dead or brain dead." "I-I didn't know it
would do that," Cordelia gasped. She covered her face with her hands.
"I finally have a good purpose for being in the group besides being the
bait and it's going to get me killed anyway." "Well,
if you were a demon it wouldn't," Anya continued to speak in her matter
of fact tone, "Of course there are very few ways for a human to become
a demon. There are vengeance wishes. I remember this one time a few
years before Giles so rudely smashed my pendant; a sweet young thing in
Rio De Janeiro said that her boyfriend was slimy horny creep, So, she
wished that's what he looked like. I turned him into a Chaos demon." "Anya,
the matter at hand, please?" Willow stated. She had no desire to listen
to any of the ex-vengeance demon's stories even if they did pertain to
what was happening. "Oh sorry. So,
vengeance wishes, the Powers that Be could actually change you into a
demon or find a parasitic demon like a vampire to host inside your
body." Anya finished in a hurry. "I don't
want to be a vampire," Cordelia screeched. This made her head throb,
and she pressed her hands to her temples. "Ow. Ow. I don't want to be
evil." "Too late for that," Willow muttered. She didn't
notice the looks of rebuke that Tara and Dawn gave her. "Not
all parasitic demons are evil," Anya replied, "They just don't reveal
themselves like vampires do. The most common are known as the
Penhuibin. They are a form of non-corporal angel." "If they don't reveal themselves, how are we going to
find one?" Buffy asked. "That's no problem," Anya announced confidently,
"Hassib at the Donut Drive-thru is a Penhuibin." Xander's jaw actually dropped, and he sputtered, "How
long has he been a demon?" "How
should I know? I just know he was already a demon when I met him," Anya
replied. She sat down in her chair, unconcerned that she just shocked
her fiance into near speechlessness. "You met him on our first not-a-date," Xander
sputtered some more, "That was 2 years ago." "Yeah, so?" came the bored answer. "Can
we get back to me and the fact my brain is going to turn mush?"
Cordelia grumbled, "Damn that Doyle. Why couldn't he have kissed
someone else? Like say Angel." Cordelia thought about her coworkers in
Los Angeles, and she jolted to attention as she suddenly remembered
something. "Oh my God, I didn't tell Wes I was coming here." "You
can use the phone, but I expect to be compensated for the long distance
charges," Anya declared. She showed Cordelia where the phone was, and
the rest of the room tried hard not to appear like they were
eavesdropping as the brunette seer made her call. Cordelia
dialed the familiar number, and then she fiddled with the cord while
she waited for someone to answer. "Hey, Wesley." Cordelia paused. She
looked at the others in the room. "Funny you should ask that. I'm in
Sunnydale with the old gang. Is Angel close by?" The
Scoobies waited with baited breath for Cordelia to continue her
conversation. They knew that when Angel found out that the reason the
spell was broken was because Buffy had asked for it, that the broody
vampire would rush to Sunnydale. "No. I do
not want to talk to him. I'm very mad at him right now." Cordelia gave
the Scoobies a little smile. "You tell him he has a lot to make up for
right now." Cordelia paused for a few very long minutes as she listened
to what Wesley had to say. "You want to know who's here? Well, the
whole gang. You know Willow, Xander and their girlfriends. Dawn too, of
course. You won't believe how much she's grown. Spike's also here with
his..." Cordelia hesitated for just a second. "mate." The
Scoobies jumped a little when Cordelia held the phone away from her
ear. They could hear a voice yelling over the phone line. They all
began to laugh when, after a few minutes, Cordelia hit the receiver on
the counter a few times. "Please give the
phone back to Wesley," Cordelia declared hotly, "You're not the boss of
me, Angel." She listened for a few more minutes before she growled, and
she shoved the phone receiver out to the group. "Someone else talk to
him before I do something really stupid like wish vengeance, again." The
Scoobies looked at the receiver like it was an acid spitting snot demon
of unknown origins. They stared at Cordelia with wide eyes until she
finally pushed the phone towards Buffy who buried her face in Spike's
neck. Everyone could tell that Buffy wasn't ready to speak to the other
Aurelian vampire. She curled into Spike's body and allowed him to
soothe her with his purring. Finally Xander
had enough. Listening to Angel complain, plead and attempt to bribe
Cordelia while he apparently held off the other people at his end of
the phone prompted the young man to leap to his feet and grab the
receiver from Cordelia's hand. "Hello, Deadboy," he deadpanned.
Spike
put the phone down, and he turned to the others, "Giles is on his way
to Sunnydale, and I suppose the big brooding poofter will be, too.