Title: Past Glory
Author:  Sandy <sp23twop@yahoo.com>
Rating:  NC-17
Pairing: Spike/Buffy
Spoilers:  S5 up to Tough Love, AU after that although elements of S6
will appear throughout the story.
Disclaimer:  Alas, not mine, I just borrow them occasionally
Feedback:  Gives me the warm fuzzies
A/N:  For the purposes of this story, the Knights of Byzamtium,
although suspecting that the Slayer is protecting the Key are not
aware that Dawn is the Key.


Chapter 17

After the house had been cleaned up, Buffy told her sister and
friends, "I'm going to Spike's.  I'll see you all in the morning."

"Buffy..."

"In the morning, Willow.  We can talk all you like then, okay?"

Spike was out on the porch smoking a cigarette, which he tossed away
when she came out.  "Guess it's time for me to shove off," he said
quietly.  "Give you a chance to talk with your friends."

"I told them we'd talk in the morning," she said.  "I thought I'd
come with you.  I think I promised you a tasty treat."

Spike smirked at her and pulled her into his arms.  "Yeah, come to
think of it, you did."  He leaned his head down to capture her lips
and she responded by wrapping her arms around his back.

They pulled apart and then walked down the steps, arms wrapped around
each other's waists.

"Why'd you do it, Buffy?"

Buffy looked down at the sidewalk for a minute then looking straight
ahead said, "I know I should have talked to you first before telling
everyone, but," she glanced over at Spike to see him looking intently
at her.  "But you looked so unhappy and I just decided it was time.
You're not mad, are you?"

Spike stopped and turned her to face him.  "Mad because you let
everyone know we're together?  Buffy, I love you.  Being with you is
everything to me.  I just wasn't sure what it meant to you."

"It means everything to me too, Spike."

His face was so full of joy and wonder that Buffy's heart skipped a
beat.  Wrapping arms around each other again, they continued their
walk in silence.  They were in the cemetery and halfway to Spike's
crypt before he spoke again.

"So you think your Scoobies will accept this?"

"They don't have a choice, Spike," Buffy said determinedly.  "I
already told Xander it's not open to debate."

Spike kissed the top of her head.  "I know I should do the manly
thing and say I don't want to come between you and your friends, but
I'm a right selfish bastard."

Buffy just grinned at him.  "Well, what else would a girl expect from
her evil, soulless demon lover?"

Spike vamped and made little bitey movements on her neck causing
Buffy to squeal and jerk back in giggling protest.

The sound of her giggles went straight down his body to his cock.
Slipping back into human face he growled, "Buffy, if we don't get to
my place soon, I'm doin' you right here on the nearest headstone."

"I'd like to see you try," she whispered huskily.  Pulling his head
to her mouth, she bit down sharply on his earlobe while squeezing his
throbbing arousal.

It was all the invitation he needed.  Before she could react, Buffy
found herself leaning back over a large headstone.  Pressing his body
tightly against hers, Spike kissed her violently, holding nothing
back.  Reaching down he began to pull up her skirt sliding it up her
thigh until he reached her hip.  Slipping his hand around he nudged
her legs apart and shoved aside the crotch of her panties.  She was
wet and slick and when he thrust a finger inside her she moaned and
clenched around him.  Her fists grasped the back of his coat as he
worked his finger in and out, his thumb rubbing against her clit.
Her moans and whispered pleas drove him wild until, unable to wait
any longer, he pulled his hand away from her and unfastened his
pants.  Pulling out his erection he tore her panties to give him
access, set her up on the edge of the headstone and plunged into
her.  Wrapping his arms tightly around her, he pumped mindlessly.

She wrapped her legs around him and lost herself.  Every nerve ending
in her body was on fire.  The harder he pounded, the wilder she
felt.  When she unexpectedly shoved him away from her, her action
caught him off guard and he fell to the ground on his back.  Looking
up at her in shock, he gasped out, "Buffy?"

Buffy vaulted off the headstone and landed on him, straddling him.
Leaning forward she grabbed him roughly by the hair and ground her
mouth onto his. Sitting back she grasped his shirt by the collar and
ripped it open.  Scooting further down his body, she ran her
fingernails down his chest leaving red tracks in their wake.  Her
mouth followed, biting his nipples, licking and sucking and nipping
at the flesh on his chest and stomach.  She was wild, unhindered in
her attack on his body, giving him pain and pleasure in equal
measures.  At last she moved back up his body.  She pulled her skirt
up until she was fully exposed to his view.  Reaching down, she
grasped his cock, positioned herself, and slowly impaled herself on
his long, thick shaft as he watched.  Placing her hands on the ground
beside his head she leaned into him and began to clench and unclench
her muscles as she worked him.  Spike gazed at her in wondering
adoration.  When she constricted even more tightly around him, he
arched up and moaned.  His eyes closed and then opened to see that
her head was thrown back and her mouth was open as she began to
come.  When the pulses started, he held her firmly and pistoned his
hips driving forcefully into her until he poured out his release.

She collapsed on top of him.  He held her loosely, his eyes closed as
he recovered.  After several minutes, he opened his eyes to stare up
at the stars.

"How long is it 'til morning?" he asked with effort.

"I don't know," she murmured.  "Six hours?"

"Oh.  Well, thanks for the amazing shag, pet, but I think I'll still
be lyin' here come sunrise."

Buffy laughed weakly.  Turning her head, she kissed him on the side
of the neck.  "Betcha I can get your motor revving again long before
that."  To prove her point, she undulated her inner muscles around
him, gently kneading his cock.  Spike moaned, arched his body and
sprang back to life.  Buffy relaxed again as she felt him swell
within her.  He could feel her lips curl into a smirk.

"See, told you."

"And you call me evil," he growled as he slowly began to thrust.
Buffy hissed and sitting up again, moved with him.  Their climaxes
came quickly and this time after they rested they rose to continue
their walk to Spike's crypt.  Spike used Buffy's torn panties to wipe
their spendings from her thighs and then, after inhaling the musk
that saturated them, put them in his coat pocket.

A flush of heat tore through Buffy as she watched him.  It took them
over an hour to get to the crypt.

***

It was after ten the next morning before Buffy made it home.  Last
night had been the first time she'd had the opportunity to spend the
entire night with Spike and they'd taken full advantage of it, not
falling asleep until nearly dawn.

The only one in the house was Willow working at her computer.  Buffy
could tell by her stiff posture that she was still angry.  Stopping
next to her Buffy said, "Hey, Will.  I'm going to go take a shower.
Can we talk when I'm finished?"  Willow shrugged, feigning
disinterest and Buffy sighed inaudibly.  She so didn't want to do
this, but knew she owed it to her friend to try to talk it out.

After she'd showered and put on clean clothes, she came downstairs,
fixed some tea and brought in cups for herself and Willow.  In an
attempt to get the conversational ball rolling, she asked, "So,
what're you working on?"

"Some of the CD's from Warren's," Willow answered, her eyes never
leaving her screen.

"Oh.  Anything interesting?"

Willow's hands stilled on the keyboard.  "Why didn't you tell me,
Buffy?  We're supposed to be able to tell each other everything."

"I know, Will.  I just needed time before I let anyone know.  I
wasn't even sure if it would last more than a couple days."  She
smiled at her friend.  "You know how Spike can make me crazy."

"Do you love him?"

Buffy hesitated.  "I care about him.  A lot.  I'm not sure if it's
love.  You know what kind of luck I have with love, so I'm taking my
time there."

"What happens if his chip fails?"

Buffy looked down at her hands folded on the table.  "That's the
question, isn't it?" she said in a soft voice.  "Willow, it's not
like I haven't given this a lot of thought.  Hell, it's not like I
didn't fight this tooth and nail.  I don't think there's an argument
against it I haven't already come up with.  But..."

"But it was bigger than the both of you?" Willow smiled.

Buffy's lips curled in a slight smile.  "Do you want me to be honest?"

Willow nodded, her eyes solemn.

"I kept telling myself that being with him would be wrong.  That he
doesn't have a soul.  That he's a killer only temporarily
restrained.  And I told myself that if that chip fails he'll go right
back to being a killer and then..."

"You'll have to kill him."

Buffy swallowed and nodded.  "Yeah.  Like I had to kill Angel.  And I
don't want to go through that again."

"But..."

"But I wanted him, Willow.  And not just for sex, although that's
totally amazing," she said grinning at her blushing friend.  "I
wanted him so much I hurt - physically, emotionally..." she
paused. "Spiritually," she finished in a whisper.

"Logically I know he's totally the wrong guy to be with.  But I think
he's what I need.  And he's who I want to be with."  Taking a deep
breath she looked at Willow, her head at a proud angle.  "And so I
went to him when I was invisible."

Willow's eyes grew big.  "You mean when you left us to look for other
invisible objects?"

"Yeah.  I did look for other invisible things like I said I would,
but then I went to Spike's crypt.  I didn't mean to go there.  I
mean, not consciously.  But before I realized where I was headed, I
was there.  And, uh, well, things happened."

"So you were there when Xander was looking for you?"

"Uh huh.  That's why I showed up when I did.  God, Willow, I was so
scared when I heard what Xander said.  I was sure I was going to die
and I had so many regrets.  But being with Spike wasn't one of them."
She laughed ironically.  "Not then, anyway.  I tried to break it off
with him that night before we went to the museum, but Spike can be
pretty persuasive when he wants to be.  So I agreed we'd try, see how
things worked out, but it had to be a secret."

"And he honored that."

"Yeah, he did.  I know honor and Spike seem like unmixy concepts, but
he is honorable in his own demony way."

"Well he did allow Glory to torture him rather than give up Dawn, and
he is the one who came up with the plan to save her."

"And he held to his end of the bargain when we went to fight Angelus."

"Of course there's also the time he kidnapped me and Xander and
wanted me to make a love potion to bring Dru back to him and
threatened to kill Xander if I didn't."

"But he told us where you were after Angel and I helped him, just
like he said he would," Buffy championed.

"And then there was the time he came to the dorm and tried to kill me
but couldn't because of the chip."

"Yeah, that was bad," Buffy conceded.

The two girls were silent for a bit.

"Oh!" Willow said excitedly, "but he tried to cheer me up when I got
all Depresso Willow cause I figured I just wasn't good enough to
bite.  Told me he'd thought about biting me that time he kidnapped
me."

Buffy stared at her friend in consternation.  "Willow, I'm not sure
his telling you he'd thought about biting you counts as a good thing."

"Oh.  No, probably not."

They were silent again until Willow perked up.  "But I think he was
saying it to make me feel better.  I mean, you should have seen him
Buffy, he was just so cute."

Buffy smiled and shook her head. "Well, I'll give him that all
right.  He's not short on charm."

"Nope.  And he is kind of a hottie."

"Why, Willow Rosenberg," Buffy teased.  "I thought you didn't play on
that team anymore."

Willow grinned naughtily.  "Hey, just cause I like girls now doesn't
mean I'm blind to good-looking men."

The two friends grinned at each other, the breach mended.  But they
sobered again when Willow said, "Xander's not going to accept this,
you know."

"I know.  And I'm worried about it, Will.  I don't want to lose
Xander's friendship, but I'm not giving up Spike just because he
doesn't approve.  It's my life."

"He'll keep playing the Angelus card, Buffy."

Buffy nodded sadly.  "And he'll never see past that.  But Spike's
different than Angelus.  I truly think that if the chip were to fail,
he'd control himself.  He'd try, at least.  Angelus never tried."

Willow picked at the edge of a piece of paper for a bit and then
said, "You know I could always do the gypsy curse on Spike."

Buffy made a little smile.  "Be a waste of time, Willow.  No way I'm
not sleeping with Spike."

tbc...